Been a really tough week this week . Charlie has his scan on Monday mornin , so have obviously spent the past week counting the days away !

Finding the days very tiring, but that's because I haven't stopped! Trying so hard to keep busy and not stop long enough to think / stress/ panic / worry etc etc! Was much easier when my other 2 kids were off school but now school is back on its sooooooooo much harder! Not that I get much chance to sit still with a 6 month old lol but trying to keep my mind as busy as my legs is another thing !

Have stayed away from google this week (Aren't I good ? lol! ) I don't know why I do it I do it all the time!! And only ever has the same effect! But I wont learn but then I am a woman !

He has been soooo sleepy this week, hard to know though if that's just because he is working so hard with his eyes or if it's just because hes growing up and getting more active! Trying SO hard not to "look for things" if that makes sense. I think it's really important to treat him normally with everything going on.

The week was broken up a little by a "happy distraction" though! This Wednesday was my little girls 5th birthday! .. Happy Birthday Alanah! She had a fantastic day and was treated like the true little princess she really is!

We ( SHE!!) have been counting down sleeps from 16 sleeps to go !! LOL right down to 0 sleeps to go!! I was SO glad her day had come if nothing else just to stop hearing the countdown at least 30 times a day haha! But just when I thought it was safe! She woke up on Thursday morning and said . Just 4 more sleeps until my party mummy! .. aaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhh! So roll on Sunday!

The weight loss has kinda taken a bit of a "go slow" approach. To be honest I don't think I could handle any more pressure on myself at the moment so I am still trying hard to lose it but am trying even harder not to be hard on myself when things don't go as well as I want them to !

Weight has yo yo d quite a bit the past few weeks but stayed fairly steady and mostly loosing 1lb - 3lb a week , had a week of gaining and this week have maintained so not too bad I guess considering !

Am trying to walk more this week and getting Charlie out in the open air is an added bonus!

Anyway hopefully next week's blog will be full of happy smiles and brilliant news about Charlie's Scan results! Keep everything crossed!